I Never Need To....

You Now...

Because I already did it long time ago....

Is it so hard for u to prove to me that i've made the right choice???

U just keep complaining i only know how to doubt....

I can't help but to feel that its a mistake.

People i love ....

One by one turns away from me...

Do u even understand my struggles???

Do u know how much i miss them???

Do u know how it feels to go through all these alone by myself???

U said my smile is thing that u like the most about me....

But...

Did u realise my smile was already gone since a few months ago.....???

i can't even remember the last time i really had a smile.....

U...

My first...

U know how suffering it is to always feel...

That i'm just a substitute???...

That i'll surely get hurt sooner or later???

I just want to be assured...

Is it so hard for u???

U r so contradicting...

Sometimes..

I just dunno wut to believe...

Sometimes ur words...

Really make me feel so small, degraded & unworthy...

Again...

Why is it so hard for u to prove to me that the choice i've made isn't a mistake???